DILEMMA

I do have a dilemma right now. Not an earth shattering one but a dilemma just the same. I have clothes, tons and tons of clothes. I have clothes for every stage of my body size, from reasonable to..well lets just call it what it is...fat. Over the many years I have managed to get myself down to a much smaller size than I am right now, just to balloon up again. When I am at my smaller self I have optimistically chucked my fat clothes (or passed them on to pregnant people). Then inevitably it would happen, back up I would go, all the way to huge and, yes, I would have to go out and buy new clothes.

Right now I am packing for Maui. We are heading back on Tuesday for a couple of months so I hauled out all my clothes, summer, winter, big and small. This is a good time to organize and downsize the heaping heaving amount of clothes I own.

And now the diliemma. Do I stay goal oriented and get rid of the fat winter clothes, or (probably more realistically) do I hang on to them, knowing that every pound I Iose in the next couple of months, will be gloriously regained, with a bit extra? It seems self defeating to keep the fat clothes, but it seems stupid to throw them away, knowing I will probably need them again...I have noticed that I never throw out the skinny skinny clothes. Ahhh...what to do.

I did decide last night to go through all of the clothes piled high on Bill's side of the bed, and pick out the ugly mistakes that I have been keeping, no matter what the size, out of guilt about wasting money. I did and reduced the pile minimally. Next I got rid of stuff that was just old and maybe stained. The pile went down more than I like to admit. I then divided the remaining stuff, and there was stil a four foot high pile, into summer and winter and both. Knowing I would not need the winter clothes again, i folded them, skinny and fat, and put them in the hard to reach shelf. Now my pile was down to about three feet. What the hell is wrong with me? You know I bought a LOT of summer clothes when I knew we would be in Maui lots. But I have been there enough to know I wear, alternately, two pairs of shorts, two shirts, and two bathing suits. Thats it. And I don't comb my hair. So I do not need all those summer clothes, except sometimes on cruises. So, no I won't take them to Maui, but I can't use all those clothes on a cruise, so maybe ..............I threw the lot on the floor and said SCREW IT, I will figure it out tomorrow!! in true Scarlett O'Hara fasion. And now its tomorrow and there they are, all over the bedroom. I don't know what I will end up doing with them. Methinks garbage bags shoved in the closet will be the sad answer and that is exactly where I got them from in the first place.