I don't like to admit this, but maybe writing it out may help (nothing better than sharing misery I say!) Tonight is my last night in this house. I will probably be in a hotel tomorrow night and the one after.
That means this is the last time I sleep in a place where Bill was. And I don't know why the hell this is so hard. I can honestly say that this is the toughest time I have had since the funeral. Maybe this is the final 'getting it' that he is really gone now. I don't like this feeling. It really hurts. I miss him so much. I can't wait to put this place behind me and start new. I think I will put his ashes in the car with me and hope I don't get in an accident on the way up. Maybe I will bring Mom with me too. I can hash it out with them on the way to Kamloops. I will post again before leaving. Sorry for the downer post. TTYL
There you go again, thinking you owe us unicorns and bluebirds all the time. You are sharing life. This is life. I totally get why this is so hard. Of course it is. I am so sorry you are hurting so much. I think taking Bill and your Mom in the car with you is a grand idea. You can tell them how you feel about your new start.
ReplyDeleteI think I would probably feel the same way.
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