FINALLY FOUND IT

I haven't said much about this cuz its so 'all about me ish'.  I know.  This is my blog where my posts will inevitably be 'all about me ish' but some subjects are really self oriented. (not orientated...I hate that word...shovel list...see below)

For the last while, months, I have had trouble 'liking' food.  Absolutely nothing appeals to me and if it sort of does, about half way through eating it, I hate it.  I have thrown out so much food over the last few months.  Its shameful and I don't know why.  There might be a chance that the pills I take have changed my taste buds.  Stuff just makes me feel pukey and even if I enjoy it the first time...I can't eat it again.  Sounds so spoiled and petty but it has become a real problem.  I get super hungry but nothing appeals.  I end up eating bad stuff.  Like toast, tater tots (but I even don't like those anymore), cheese, tuna salad, and thats about it.  Carby things go down well, wouldn't you know.  So weight gain is starting up again.  Dammit!

So yesterday I decided  I would sit in my chair in dead silence and think about it.  Solve the issue.  I need to find something I really like to eat everytime and only buy that.  No more self indulgent waste.

 So I did just that.  Sat there in silence, occasionally coughed my brains out, and thought about all the food available.  I marched up and down the food aisles in a grocery store in my head, checking out everything possible.  It took about half an hour of sitting there, then I hit it!!!!  I knew what I could eat everyday without getting sick of it, over and over.

I hopped up (it was six o'clock).  Pulled on my springy jacket, grabbed my wallet and headed up to Costco.  What a fantastic time to go!!!  The place was virtually empty!!!  And I bought exactly what I knew I could repeatedly eat.

And right now, at nine in the morning, with my coffee, its exactly what I am eating and loving and looking forward to lunch.  Here it is:

Toasted raisin bread
Lots of butter
Layer of whipped cream cheese
Sprinkled with chopped onion
Sprinkled with capers
And...you guessed it...a fat layer of lox...its not too pricey in Costco.

On the side:
blueberries
raspberries
figs
banana
sometimes salty tomato slices

Problem solved!  TTYL

*Although there is no real difference in meaning or function between the two words, there is clearly a better choice, and that is oriented. Oriented is a more straightforward, clear word form, and Garner's Modern American Usage calls orientated a needless variant.


MUSIC:  I am so grateful for music there are no words.  Music changes me molecularly. Makes me laugh, happy, sad, angry, cry and become like a born again Christian...everybody has to hear my latest fave!  Right now its Xanthrax by Shredders.  Love it!!!!!