SAD

I have been feeling something over the last few days that has slowly increased and snuck up on me.  Today it got strong enough that it was making me feel kind of pukey.  So I stopped and thought and thought about it.  And I finally identified the culprit.

I am really really really missing Bill.  I think I am missing him more now than I have since he died.  I also am super missing my mom right now too.  What the heck??!!  I think I just want someone older and in charge to lean on and make me feel safe.  And there it is.  I don't feel safe.  I am actually afraid.  And I am pretty sure I have lots of company out there feeling the same way.  And I miss my kids.  Tomorrow is April's birthday and I had planned on being there.  I even have a lovely present here for her.  And I want to see Arnie and Kevin and the grandkids.  And I miss Kathy and her crew and my brother.  It's family time and I miss them all.

Well enough of that boohooing.  I am so fortunate to have the three boys here.  If I were completely alone, like so many are, I would go bonkers.   And another group I want to shout out to are the awesome peeps at Telus whom I phoned today because one of my tv's wouldn't work.  They fixed it over the phone and I profusely thanked them.

  I mean I am very grateful for the frontline health workers for sure, but every single person out there that is still going to work to help us in every aspect of our lives, deserves equal credit and gratitude.  Police, firemen, grocery clerks, the tax person at city hall, insurance people, garbage guys....all of them.  Every day out they go braving a sick world while we get to either stay in our safe homes or go walking all alone or with our dogs.

I had a great call from my clinic doctor.  He is so funny!  He had me in stitches!!  He asked all the right questions and sent my prescriptions into the right place.  So easy peasy!

I made a cake day before yesterday, I think the best ever!  It was a wacky cake, a throw back to the war days and rationing.  No eggs, no butter, no milk.....chocolate and delicious.  Really delicious! A nice solid cake, not one of those insubstantial fluffy ones.  And I made a double batch of the coconut/brown sugar broiled icing on it.  Holy moly was it ever good.  So much so that I am about to sign off here and go make another one!  Take care out there peeps and stay safe.  TTYL