OKAY, I ADMIT IT…I AM BEGINNING TO FEEL DEFEATED

I don't like to admit this, but….its really beginning to get to me…not being able to find anything.  There is no way I can even get to a lot of the boxes out in the G (garage…it has become a palpable tangible enemy of mine)  And even if I could get to them, I wouldn't know where to start.

I really really need my ring note books.  I love ring notebooks.  I can't plan dinners without them.  I can't plan trips unless I have one in hand.  And I can't plan out grocery shopping properly…I like to group the foods in order of the location of the food in the store, starting at the door and working to the right.  When they change the order of things in the store I almost have heart palpitations.  

But mostly, I cannot start a diet without one of those books.  In fact I have a big fatty one dedicated to my Monday diet starts.  Seriously!  I can look into that old ratty book and see all kinds of personal weight charts, food choices, meal plans, date goals…..And now I can't find even one.  This is bad because not only do I have grocery shopping to plan, but menus to work out, new years resolutions to list and, most importantly, the NEW YEAR DIET PLAN.

Now, if you could see (and some of you can and do) how huge I am… you must be thinking "She is crazy…it doesn't work obviously so why bother"  And I say to you, " I am only 300 pounds, without those diet starts and attempts I would be 500 pounds.  So I am 200 pounds ahead," thats what I say.

I have spent a good portion of the morning out in the G wrapping presents.  Maybe I will make an attempt to peek into some of the boxes.  No, now that I am sitting here visually remembering how it is out there I know I can't.  There will be no going into any boxes beyond the first layer.  Sigh.  I shall have to go to Staples and buy more.  I just simply cannot function without one in my hand.

So now I am going to head off to Staples.  Spod will do the driving today.  There is snow out there in them thar hills…and he drives the truck.  I do the car.  When I get back I still have to make all those stupid lemon bars and banana bread for the banana trifle.  So I shall be off!  TTYL