GUILT NO MORE

 I just noticed that my post I wrote last Friday didn't post!  This blogspot is awful.  They can put a man on the moon but they can't make a decent user friendly site to use.  The title is listed but the text is completely gone.  My apologies.

Did you read this post title?  I super mean it.  I am done with always feeling guilty about not moving around more, not walking (shovel list...I effing hate walking with a passion...HATE IT!!!!), not eating healthy enough, sitting in my chair too much, blah blah blah to the power of infinity.

I was thinking this morning about this.  You know, when your time is up...IT'S UP!!!  Doesn't matter how healthy you are or aren't, when its your time, off you go.

I was thinking about our step father (sorry Kathy I am sure you aren't thrilled with that label).  He smoked heavily all his life til the last few years.  He never ate a vegetable.  When he was younger he might have been active but he sure wasn't in his later years.  He lived to 85.  And he was pretty healthy and developed dementia very late in his years.

I could trot out all kinds of examples.  And then there is the famous one...that Boston Marathon runner, not old, super healthy...dies young.

So I decided this morning I am just going to do what feels good and not sweat the rest.  If I die just know it was my time and I didn't waste one moment of my life doing shit I hated.

That being said though, with a wonderful goal in mind, I could be moved to move.  The kids and I want to make a trip to Croatia, Italy and Paris one day (if I am still alive) and I want to be able to walk and keep up with them.  So that means I will need to get off my tush and start toning up for it.  But that's different.  That carrot is a big one!!!!

I am still slowly but surely working on that cursed hooked rug.  I remember a zillion years ago I decided to hook a rug.  It was much bigger than this current one.  It was a beautiful log cabin in a perfect creeky woodsy type setting.  Lots of browns of every shade.

Well I hooked, and hooked, and hooked until I wanted to scream.  But it was a gift for Mom and Dad so I kept at it.  Then finally one day I realized I only had two more rows to completion.  So I put my two wee uns' in the car, took my rug and headed out to their place.  I took a seat on their couch and proceeded to finish the damned thing.

  I hooped and hollered and threw it on the floor and jumped up and down on it and wiped my feet and picked it up and flung it at my shocked parents and yelled...'there ya go...it's all yours now. Belated merry frigging xmas!!!!!' My children started crying, as I laughed like a crazy person. I swore I would never ever do another. Never!!!  And here I am, hooking away.  I just don't do so much in one sitting and this one is a third of the size of the other one I did.  So I don't mind so much.

I also managed to find ten things to dump.  Actually, to be honest, I found a garbage bag full.  I quit counting at around twenty.  I think I mentioned sometime ago that I had obtained a large rubber maid and put all my junk boxes and baskets and drawers into it.  I now have a pink container, a massive one, full of crap.  So I went through it and found many stupid things that have no business being in my life and threw them out.  Then I attacked my closet.  It's so much neater, cleaner and emptier.  I am happy.

So the challenges this week aren't too strenuous.

11.  Do a spring clean of your computer.  Go through your emails and get rid of the files you don't need.  Clean up your saved documents etc....  And do an external clean.  Blow out your keyboard and clean the screen.

12.  Dig out any travel memorabilia you have, either something you have brought home yourself or something someone has given you.  Find a fairly prominent spot to display it.  And don't hesitate to tell a trip story about it should someone notice it and ask!

Again I am sorry about the missing post.  Pisses me off as I am trying to be more reliable here.  It was a good one too.  I shall see if I can resurrect  it and post it this coming Friday.  Stay safe and noodle and listen to old people!  TTYL

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