Again, my apologies for the distance since the last post. I will admit that this has been a pretty tough week. I can't go into details, it involves another to some extent, because I let it, so I won't bore you with that stuff. It left me really down, not something I feel very often if ever.
I am one of those extremely lucky peeps that doesn't emotionally dive very often, if ever. But this week has been a tough one. Thank heavens Ange lives with us now. I didn't say anything to her but her cheery self coming up the stairs a few times a day really really helps.
As the week passed though I came to a new understanding on how horrible and awful depression must be for those that suffer from that particular illness. I just can't get my brain wrapped around that. To be fighting off that dark feeling (and I only surfaced it, not down to the depths like those poor souls go) I can't even imagine it. And I was able to recognize what I was feeling (effing shovel list) and unlike seriously affected people, was able to take control and shake it off. I just can't imagine not being able to do that.
Part of that shaking off is current activities. I am about to execute my most favourite activity! Actually I have already started. Big dinner time!!! I have made the lists, the timeline, cleaned most the house, set the table and done the shopping. Now it's time to start organizing serving dishes and early prep. Unless you absolutely love doing this you just won't get how very happy this makes me.
And do you remember, some of you might, at the beginning of my life here in Port, I would have a 'twelve to dinner' party every month? I loved loved loved that. Then that bully Covid came along and put a halt to that. (shovel list) Three of those people are coming Sunday!! One of them even asked me if I was making dinner and if so could he come!!!!! I was very honoured. So six to table this year.
This year its a fifteen pound turkey year. Plus a ton of sides and a boatload of gravy. I want to send home food with some of them. Being on disability with food prices what they are is a true difficulty. People helped me out many times back when my older two were babies and I was on welfare. I am very grateful to be able to pay it forward now. Oh god!!!! I sound so freaking noble and I am NOT!!! I am just happy again.
An interesting note here...five of the six of us on Monday are musicians! We have three pianists, one guitar player...a good one, and one very good strong singer! And just on a side note we all play and sing pretty much on the regular (except me, I need to play more, but I have a roomie that might get annoyed LOL!!). What none of us do is sports. It would have been nice to have music as prominent in our schools as soccer. Just sayin'.
I hear this morning that the Hamas have invaded Israel. This is not going to bring any good. I understand their motives but this is kind of bringing back a lot of fear us seventyish year olds went through back in high school days. The thinking and talk, back in the day, when teens actually talked with each other face to face and conversed with adults about world politics etc., was how THE atomic war would rise out of the Middle East. We didn't fear Russia....we feared the Middle East. It brought about a lot of post apocalyptic literature, which was on our high school reading lists. Animal Farm, Chrysalids, Brave New World, Martian Chronicles, On the Beach, 1984 etc......This is still my fave genre of reading.
Well damn!!!!! Ange just came up to tell me that Sunrise turkeys have been recalled. We checked and in my fridge is a fifteen pound Sunrise turkey. Fuckadoodle!!!!!! Monte is out and about so I phoned him and he is coming home to pick it up and take it back to Quality Foods. Luckily I bought a second fifteen pounder for the freezer, not a sunrise. So it is now out and thawing.
Every house I have lived in long enough, I have watched the regular walkers walk by. And every time I have become super familiar with them. And every time there would be one that gradually got slower and slower until they no longer came by.
When I moved in here four years ago there was a woman about my age that walked steadily by every day. She never lifted her eyes off the sidewalk. She was always bundled up, even in the summer. And, again, bit by bit as time has gone by, she has become slower and slower, now going by every two days. Today I happened to see her and not only has she slowed to almost a crawl, but she is using a cane. I am so impressed that she is walking at all. This has happened in every place I have lived long enough to see the slowing down and disappearing.
Well it's time to wrap this one up. I will take unnecessary pics of the dinner and guests and post them here. Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Make it a happy thankful one. TTYL
'I hate turkeys. If you stand in the meat section at the grocery store long enough, you start to get mad at turkeys. There's turkey ham, turkey bologna, turkey pastrami. Someone needs to tell the turkey, 'man, just be yourself,' Mitch Hedberg
SUPER MISSING PAT. DINNER WON'T BE THE SAME WITHOUT HIM. ANGE WAS JUST SAYING THAT IT HAS ALMOST BEEN TWO YEARS NOW SINCE HIS PASSING. LOVE YOU PAT!!!
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