NOT LIKING THIS SO MUCH

So far I have only had moments of intensely missing Spod which after a little while passes.  Something will have triggered it..like finding his old sweater.  But right now I am checked into our usual hotel here in Vancouver and its kind of awful.  I have been here since he died but Monte was with me and that made it easier.  But now I feel really by myself.  I feel kind of bad, no, I feel really bad that I was so annoyed with him so much of the time.  By now if he were with me today, I would be pissed off because he stunk up the bathroom, or that he lay down and started snoring, or spread his potions and ointments all over the bathroom space or……I was so busy being annoyed that I didn't realize how much his company was so needed.  Hotel rooms simply suck when you are by yourself.  I really really miss him and would give anything to do that part over.  I want him back.

I left the house this morning around 8:30.  Yesterday I spent the entire day re watching Downton Abbey.  It had been a long time since watching it.  In between episodes I would pause it for an hour and speed clean and do chores.  I got a huge amount done!  I had to leave the house ready for the housekeeper, put out all the recycling, put out the garbage, do the dishes, blah blah blah.  Last week the housekeeper arrived fifteen minutes late and left fifteen minutes early.  So I left a pretty stringent note with a list of extra stuff she can do to fill in the two hours.  I pay her twenty bucks an hour (two over her asking) and I expect to get two hours.  We will see.

I am meeting Aryn and Myles and April tonight for dinner.  There is a special Chinese food place Myles and his father like so we are going to go there.  I am not hungry yet.  On the ferry I actually went to the buffet and paid the twenty bucks.  The food was okay, I wasn't really hungry, but the peace and quiet was worth every dime.  I spent the whole time up there with my laptop and phone, reading my sci fi books I have downloaded.  Very peaceful.  And being alone on the ferry I am used to.  Spod just slept in the vehicle when we were on the ferry.  But this staying in the hotel alone is going to get some getting used to.

Well I shall report back tomorrow.  Claire, if you are reading this, I shall call you tomorrow afternoon about lunch on Thursday!  You can always call me too on that number you have.  If one doesn't work the other one will.  I can't wait to see you two!  TTYL