Secondly, I had a buzz of happy anticipation running through me. It took a few moments to pinpoint its origin. And then I remembered...Cousin Dorothy and Dan are taking me out for dinner tonight and spending the night!!! I have missed them so much since moving here. And not only that, they are taking me to Harold's, my mom and Bob's fave place to eat. I went with them many times and the place is pretty special.
Thirdly, I have an amazing sound system set up in my living room, calling to me. My personal roadie, Monte, set it all up. I have an amazing 88 key keyboard, Korg, two incredible monitor speakers and a module Roland Integra 7 sound synth...it makes over 6,000 different sounds. I can play Hallelujah and Amazing Grace with a grand piano, a massive church organ, a whole symphony of strings and a deep many voiced choir all together. Honestly, its like God is sitting on the bench right beside me. And I can play picaninny banjo music with something that sounds just like a banjo. And I can play Scottish Soldier with a bagpipe. What an incredible musical experience!!!
Fourthly: My jeep....I am preparing my silly old dirty Scion out there for trade in. I am so excited to be picking up my Jeep on Monday morning!!!! I have my khaki outfit and Bear Grylls binoculars all ready. I told the guy not to wash it. I so have to remember to take my "I Love My Granddog" magnetic bumper sticker off the scion and put it on the back of "Tank". So so exciting. But.....
Not too long after all those wonderful feelings a negative started to creep in. I started to think about my kids that are financially struggling right now, some of my friends are too, starving kids, unhappy abused animals, and, not to sound overly righteous or noble, began to feel guilty...and spoiled.
I don't know why it is, but it seems us humans just need to always spoil things for ourselves. Its stupid. Oh, it won't stop me from enjoying every minute of enjoyment of all that, but you know what? I am going to blame my mom for this! Hahaha....she operated from feeling a lot of guilt...I think it stemmed back to the religion we were brought up in. Humility at all costs. Oh Oh!! I think I just heard my swear jar rattle a little. (I keep her in my swear jar)
Well I now have to go deal with a tremendous amount of packaging. I also received a huge huge package holding a photograph canvas I ordered. So between the keyboard, speakers, Roland synth, picture, Monte's keyboard, and many smaller packages holding giant shoes, piano books etc...my garage is looking too full. I have managed to keep that garage pretty empty!
I was in a line up at Surplus Herbies with Kathy the other day and I mentioned to her that my garage was pretty much empty and the guy ahead of her whipped around and shook his head in envy and disbelief!!! Made me laugh. So I gotta keep it like that!
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| MY GIANT 3' X 3' CANVAS...I TOOK THIS PIC THROUGH A CASTLE STAINED WINDOW |
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| I STILL HAVEN'T GOT A COFFEE TABLE |
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| MY FANTASTIC SOUND SYSTEM...MESSING UP THE CORNER (BUT SO WORTH IT) |
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| MY FRILLY FOOFOO PURPLE ROOM...STILL A WORK IN PROGRESS |
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| LIKE MY PRETTY 29 DOLLAR LAMP ON THERE? |
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Love your rooms!!!!!! and that frilly mirror!
ReplyDeleteEnjoy every moment of feeling spoiled!!! You earned that right after years of being poor then working hard to be exactly where you are at now. I'm working hard so one day I too can enjoy spoiling myself. Besides, if you hadnt had to work so hard to get to where you are at now, you probably wouldn't enjoy it as much. :)
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ReplyDeleteI second what Aryn said. You need not feel guilty enjoying what you worked for! And your place is looking amazing! You will need to upload a sound clip for us when you complete your first original composition from your "music corner"....
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