ANAL FISSURES

If you didn't read Shannon's comment the title of this post won't make much sense.  I have a wonky eye and when I first read her comment, not that it made any sense, I saw "anal fissure" and thought she was talking about a band!  Jeez, I don't know where my brain was at at that moment!

Let me thank all you people that sent me those encouraging, informative and so so supportive emails.  You have no idea the positive impact they had on me.  As a result I am no longer afraid and ready to take on whatever may come.  You people out there are so amazing.  Lorrie, Sylvia, Cari, Karen, all of you.  I have always believed that knowledge is your best weapon and you guys educated me...for sure better than my stupid doctor.  When I go in on Monday I am not going to talk to him...at all.  I will briefly answer any question he might, and I mean might, have and thats it.  But thank you all.

So I have done a total turn around in my day.  I am tracking my blood sugars (and they aren't too bad I might add), weight, (I finally got batteries for my scale and I am lower than I have been in years), heart rate (averages 57), and my carb intake.  If I start thinking about eating crap I shouldn't, I just remember that three month average blood test coming up in April.  It feels so good to be in control.  

Monte is doing unbelievably well.  He just wrote another song...a beautiful, almost classical piece.  I listen to him down there slowly developing a piece from a nub of three notes to a full beautiful piece.  I might have thought I was biased and I just might be! but he played a gig in front of an audience and a bunch of band people the other night.  The reception to his music was huge!  And...he has been invited into an already formed band, they need a keyboardist, and he has been rehearsing with them and its going super well.  They hit the road here soon on a mini tour, starting in Vernon and ending in Pemberton.  He is soooo blinking happy right now!  Plus it looks like he may have a part time job at a local radio station, archiving (or something) their music library.  Happy kid!

Well its time to drink a green gross disgusting smoothie.  I need to do some serious tweeking!  TTYL