FIRST TIME

Every night when I am still sitting here blogging or watching tv or reading and it is getting very late, I get that creeping feeling that sometime here its slipped from 'all is permissible and fine' to 'clandestine sneaky, I am up way past my preferred bedtime."  I know when Spod would come out to get some water or something or other, he would peer into my purple room and ask "You still awake?  What the hell are you doing?"  Keep in mind he went to bed hours before like around 8 or 8:30.  Now its only 11:30!  

I remember years ago my dad worked at the Kamloops city jail.  He had to drive past my apartment to go to his midnight shift.  He would see my window lit up and would phone from work and suggest I get to bed.  Jeez!!

Tonight it has occurred to me that I am now completely and totally without any authority or perceived authority over my life and how I live it. My dad is gone.  My mom is gone.  My husband is gone.  Its just me.  I like this and I aint changing it….ever.

Today was a Costco day.  I still feel funny going by myself without Spod.  I don't think I ever went on my own without him.  He loved it so much.  It wasn't too busy in there either.  I had to stock up on my tomatoes and feta cheese.  The tomatoes aren't tasting as good anymore as they did through the summer.

With Monte's help I set up a wrapping station in the garage again.  A couple of high tables from Costco, scissors, tape and all the trimmings and I need to find me an old office chair.  Its downstairs.  I love it out there.  I bring out my laptop, play some tunes and its freezing cold…which suits me to a T!  I love hot coffee in my travel mug in the freezing cold.  It tastes good.  I used to like to smoke in the cold too but that boat's done floated a long time ago.  This year is even better because the 'beer' fridge is out there.  I can just saunter over now and then and take a swig out of the egg nog liqueur bottle.

I was totally enjoying my picture today, up over the piano, when Monte suddenly noticed it was upside down..according to all the signatures and labelling.  So we flipped it over and I didn't like it anymore.  The right way makes the blue a finite body of water.  The upside down way makes the blue an endless, lost in space sky,  such a different feeling!  And I shall be hanging it upside down when I hang it permanently.

I put a picture of it below so you can check it out for yourself.  I have also put a picture of the xmas tree…its so awful this year.  Nothing I do helps it. And the stupid thing doesn't have a stick to put a tree top on.  All for now.  TTYL

AUSTIN

CURIOUS MOLLY

STUPID TREE…

AUSTIN'S AWESOME BROTHER LEVI

I TRANSFERRED THIS PIC FROM A WEBSITE SO IT WON'T CLEAR UP BUT THIS IS THE ROOM IT WILL BE HUNG IN IN MY NEW HOUSE..  THE BLUES GO WELL

IMAGINE IT UPSIDE DOWN….JUST DOESN'T WORK, ITS TOO FINITE