NIGHTTIME … THE HARDEST TIME

I have to figure out how to spend the evenings with Bill.  Normally he sleeps, but when he doesn't its just horrible for him.  Today he felt like he was drowning…I think the fluid in his chest is building up.  I think its almost time to just move into the room with him and just stay there.  Emily is only a mile away and I can slip over there to shower and change, I know she wouldn't mind, I need to stay near him now and help him through those scary moments he is having.

Today was super full and fulfilling.  Dave and Val came and visited.  A decision was made yesterday that he isn't allowed to get up anymore, he is dangerously weak.  So two nurses got him all cozy and pushed his bed upstairs to the garden.  He so loves it up there.  So we spent a wonderful hour up there with him.  He snoozes and listens to the voices around him visiting.

After Dave and Val left Cari (Aryn's friend from Monaco and used to work for us, she developed a real bond with Bill) and Aryn and Bradley arrived.  He was so happy to see 'Twinkie' again.  

But he is weakening and sleeping longer periods.  He did phone me tonight.  He was panicking because he couldn't move.  So over the phone I helped him verbally to find the call bell and call a nurse.  He also said he was dry, needing a drink and he couldn't find his water.  I feel I really need to be there with him.  My poor Billy.  TTYL

SAYING GOODBYE

IN THE GARDEN