EATING CROW

Alright, I do have to admit that now that I don't have Spod around to take these critters off my hands, I am enjoying their company.  As most of you know I have to sleep in a recliner due to back issues.  Molly, who avoids me like the plague if there is even one more slightly desirable person in the house, (clearly she excludes Monte) will deign to sleep with me.  She climbs up and snuggles down between my knees and doesn't move til morning.  Parker lies right at the foot of the chair on his bed, which I admit, I put there.  They are such good company, even if I do actually hate dogs.  (shovel list … they are just too dependant on us humans to make or break their day)                                                                
I went over to visit Spod this morning and he slept the whole time.  The nurse said he didn't sleep last night (which I already know because he phoned quite a few times through the night).  They have upped his meds so he is totally dopey today.  Monte just got back from seeing him and he said Spod didn't even remember me being there.  Actually I kind of like it when he is like this…he sleeps more and is less sad.
He asked Monte to write him a song.  Monte is out in the living room right now doing just that.  I think my heart is going to break.  What is it about music that brings out so much 'feeling'?  If I didn't love music so frigging much I would be putting it on my shovel list.                      
Tonight we met Pat Needham, a dear friend from Bamfield, at the hospital.  But Spod was so so out of it.  What a difference from yesterday.  If he hadn't been so good yesterday, and I didn't know they changed his meds, I would think he was on his last breath.  It was actually kind of scary.  But we had a great visit with Pat (Ted from Bamfield's son)  He told me tonight that Spod reminds him of his dad…a true compliment to Spod.   We stayed until nine thirty but Spod was completely out of it.  He couldn't talk or even respond other than a wee nod.  I hope he truly sleeps tonight.  But Monte and I are going to go over if he phones in the night and isn't able to sleep.  At least he has a tv and headphones.  I hate this.                 TTYL