I would be unable to live without lists. My dilemma though is paper versus computer versus phone. Actually what it boils down to is which one can I read. I can't read the phone list. My eyes....and I can't read my paper one cuz my hand printing has become very erratic due to....eyes. But that just leaves the computer and I can't pack it around with me everywhere.
I should go to the eye doctor (I would say opthablahblah but I can't spell it) but I am scared they will tell me I need needles in my eyes. I have talked with more than one person with similar problems as mine and that is what those brave people do every month. They prance confidently into the doc's office and throw themselves in a chair and say 'okay poke me right smack in my eye'. No thanks. Thus I practise at least once a week walking around with my eyes shut...practising being blind. . I am becoming very good at it.
Anyway back to the lists. I have them all on my word processor. I have a list for stuff I have to take to the upcoming retreat. I have a shopping list for stuff getting delivered tomorrow so I can cook things. I have a list for Costco shopping on our way out to Chilliwack...destination of said retreat. I have a list of clothes and stuff to pack. I have a list of activities I have to do before I leave...housekeeper is coming on Friday. It is endless. I even made a list of the dates starting Monday to the day I leave on the Thursday and what I have to do each day.
I am taking the van. The only thing about that is I skipped getting a BCAA membership due to having road assist on Smudge. So that leaves me with a problem if shit happens, and trust me it will, when I have the van. Maybe I will get hold of BCAA and reinstall my membership. I didn't think about the van when I made that stupid decision.
Normally I would be taking the car over to the mainland. But there are three of us going and we each are loaded with food and booze. And Smudge is stupid. She is so small in every way. There is no way three of us will fit in her and all the coolers and acoutrablahbah (can't spell it) that is going as well. So van it is.
I am trying to decide if I should buy some booze and mix and drink this weekend. I could. I generally am not a drinker but I feel this is a drinking crowd. I don't mind the liquor or the buzz etc... but I can't watch other people start getting stupid and slurring their words etc...I find it upsetting and brings back memories I would rather not remember. I tend to retreat..quite the opposite of the particular retreat I am attending.
I am not talking about my family memories. I grew up in a cult where there is no drinking at all. No I am talking about some Indigenous that were not allowed alcohol on their reserve until 1957 when that barbaric controlling law was knocked down. But up until then all their drinking had to be done in town. And when I saw these lovely people weaving down the street behaving erratically, it scared hell out of me. It's left a lasting fear of people who change when they drink. But I know when I join in, if I don't get pukey, it isn't so traumatizing. Jeez! What a baby!
Anywhooo a busy week coming up. I haven't completely finished my room yet. Mind you it is pretty empty now but not done. So no pic yet. Ange and I have shelved the purge onslaught until after the retreat weekend. I have a busy week coming up.
So thats it for now. I am hungry! Gonna go eat something. TFL and TTYL
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