This post is partially directed towards those people that know me. I need to clear something up. I feel that to some of you I have complained about my life, the people in it and my living circumstances. I think it peaked recently when the by-law lady came by saying we were reported and our experience with Floppy and the SPCA. I do believe I made a pretty strong blog post about things...very negatively I might add.
In the last couple of weeks I have re read what I wrote and pondered how I felt, how I let myself feel. I sincerely hope that what I am about to write doesn't sound overly noble. I don't mean it to.
I have always believed that happiness stems from two things. Firstly love and just importantly choice. I have tried in parts of my life to remember this and live by it. But too many times I have found myself a long caustic way from it. And when I reread those couple of posts, and I still don't know why I did reread them, I was very strongly reminded that the only reason I was hating the neighbourhood, hating the owner of the neighbour's house and hating this town was only because of my forgetting about what I really and truly believe. It's a choice.
I spent the next few days rereading some of my books that give me the kick in the butt and refresh my knowledge and thus my resolve back to peace. I don't meditate, I wish I could but....(shovel list). I think if I developed a daily five minute think session it would help keep me on track. I have a tendency to be a caustic blister as Spod called me and I do have to tamp it down and change that all too often. And then as time goes by I get lazy about it and then forget altogether until something jogs that resolve. Anyway enough of that. In fact I wouldn't be surprised if I've lost a few of you. Lol!! and that's okay.
Monte is doing unbelievably well!!! Now that he has his own space to retreat to it has made all the difference in the world!!! He comes home for dinner, he has spent a day or two staying here at home, he has been taking a bunch of his treasures to the place. And I just feel a sense of peacefulness about him, a lack of tension. Oh he still can only keep one thing at a time in his mind and a few other autistic anomalies, but overall this has done more for him than any medication ever did. The medication made him sleep and when awake, sleepy, and awful weight gain. Those pills are awful. (shovel list)
I may be bringing Elise back on July 2. I am leaving for Vancouver a week from today. I have decided that she probably would not want to be downstairs in that big old cold bedroom by herself. No matter how old you are some places are just not welcoming and that room is one of them.
So I am in the midst of totally cleaning out my room, back to its pretty self. No more suitcases, vacuum cleaners, ironing boards and coolers in there!!!! I mentioned in the last post I bought fifty hangers and they are already almost all used up!!! And that is where she will be!! I sleep out here in my beloved recliner and do not sleep in that bed so she is totally welcome to it. I can't wait!!!
April and Myles got their professional wedding pictures back and apparently they are beyond stunning!! They had both of them in tears. And there are over two hundred of them!!!! And Myles, bless his sweet heart, has forbidden April to share them on any public forum until I get to see them first!!!! I can't believe it!!!! Apparently he is absolutely adamant and I think it is killing poor April!!! To make it harder I have their dog!!! They are missing her so much and the earliest ferry reservation I could get was July 2!!!! That is a week from today!!! I am honoured and grateful that Myles is honouring me that way!!!
Speaking of her, I call her Gdog, I am absolutely loving having her. She is such good company. In our house I am G-ma, Ange is G-aunty, Monte is G-uncle. She is so loving and such a happy little mutt. She is helping us get over Floppy and making the decision that the only dog we may get in future will be an old little one. Of course there are never any up for adoption. But I keep looking. If anyone has an old not too big doggie that they can't keep, please keep us in mind!!!! Or a guinea pig. I love guinea pigs!!!
Well that is it for today. There is a very overstuffed bedroom hollering down the hallway!!!! Have a wonderful ..... well however long it is til my next post, peaceful few days. TFL & TTYL
This moment is all you have. Yesterday is gone. Tomorrow isn’t here yet. All your power lives in this single moment. EL CREATIVO
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