I have subscribed to an essay site. I get about twelve a day in my email. I don't read them all. I just skim through the titles and click on ones that pique my interest.
So today one of the essays caught my attention for some reason. It basically listed the five things people on their death bed most regret. Well I was going to whip right past it but then it caught me in my brain. About six essays down I kept going back to the article. I finally clicked on it.
I don't like being told what to do...no one does. So these essays on self help nine times out of ten just piss me off. I expected this one to as well. This is what it suggested (just the short heading and my quick take on the advice)
1. I WISH I'D HAD THE COURAGE TO LIVE A LIFE TRUE TO MYSELF, NOT THE LIFE OTHERS EXPECTED OF ME.
Well I have definitely lived true to myself. I have never listened to anyone on how I should be. My philosophy is if you don't like me then go away.
2. I WISH I HADN'T WORKED SO HARD.
Are you kidding? I worked damned hard as a mother and loved every single moment of it. I am still living that life by choice. I loved working with Bill as a mortgage broker. Every day was awesome. And now I am sitting in my beloved recliner taking retirement by storm....easily!!!!
3. I WISH I'D HAD THE COURAGE TO EXPRESS MY FEELINGS.
This one made me sad!!! Just recently expressing my feelings got me into serious trouble with my awesome nephew and through him his wife. I love both of them so dearly and would never in the world would I hurt them. But hey! I was expressing my feelings. So this one should be the opposite for me. I should learn to keep my more extreme feelings to myself! This one is going to be a hard one to not regret on my deathbed.
4. I WISH I HAD STAYED IN TOUCH WITH MY FRIENDS.
Well I am not sure about this one. All you readers are my friends and I think about you a lot as I blog. I have a few dear friends in Kamloops and I am about to go to Kamloops and will be seeing them all. I think I have been pretty good at keeping in touch.
5. I WISH I HAD LET MYSELF BE HAPPIER.
Well holy cow!!! If wishes were horses we would all be riding into the sunset. I learned at a very tender age that the one thing people could not do in my life was to control two things....my thoughts and my happiness. If something is controlling either of those then I do something about it!!!! My awesome mother had a tendency to want us kids to think the way she did. I remember at four years old I became aware that just because she got mad at me for expressing an opposite opinion to hers, I could still think that way in spite of her. Seriously... at four. It saved our relationship in the end.
So there it is. Obviously I am ready to die happy. Lol!!! I am glad I went back and read it just to end up feeling kind of smug. I think most of us when we get older in this day and age...post hippie time, we are all more advanced than we used to be. Thank goodness!!! Gotta bounce...be happy...TFL & TTYL
'When it's my time I hope to go with a smile on my face and fried bologna sammiches in both hands!' Helen Price
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